i have to let you go

Its been one of the worst days of my life- I knew that I would be bad at this…I am ashamed to learn that I cannot just forget things….I just cant let you go away…..You have stood by me all through my life….the only faithful companion that I had…watched every single moment…have been behind every single thing that I did in the past…..It is so hard to just cut you off like this….but if this is it….so be it…I will have to let you go….i know that wherever you are…you are there with a purpose and I respect that….i dread meeting people for they are sure going to prod me and ask me why everything has changed….i wonder if this is going to be that conspicuous………..
Well mebbe it is…especially since I have been identified with hair that was 15 inches long all through my life!!!!!!!Long tresses just above my knees till I was in school and hair that came upto my waist until a few hours ago…was pretty easy for people to spot me too…..but rather than being a useless exhibit that just attracts unwanted(?) attention, I am sure that the cancer patient who gets it would make good use of it….its a nice feeling…and I wish I could do this more often….